Abbey Road

3pennylane @ 2006-05-13T20:16:00

2006-05-13T12:24:39Z

Ok so here i am again, feeling guilty. I've come to Perth to visit my bro, and what a i doing? sitting in his room typing away on the computer whilst they watch the footy, i could have been doing this at home and not spent all the money coming over here. Jenko has been so great though he took a day off work, and took me, sarah and danny to Margaret River. Which was beautiful, we went to this really snotty rich resturant and he shouted. This week since i've been here he has spent a fair bit of money trying to make it awesome for me, and i have to say that i love perth!!! I've spent too much money since i've been here as well though. So much for what i thought was gonna be a cheap trip away. I've been drinking for three days solid, and am now feeling the repercussions of my recklessness. I think i'll be sleeping on the plane tomorrow.

On another note i had an awesome birthday! Everyone over here was soo good, and i got heaps of birthday messages so i felt special for the day even though i didn't want a fuss. Um what else... Oh a worsing note, i'm shattered! I LOST MY NUT AND BOLT earrings last night at margaret river. i can't believe it. I'm so annoyed, we searched everywhere this morning for them but it was to no avail.

These thigs do happen!

Anyhow i cant be bothered writing any more because i don't like this keyboard, i like mine at home much better!

Cheers all!

Holidays

2006-04-22T11:57:34Z

Hey all well, the holidays are almost up and i have to say they are the first decent ones i've had in a long time. I haven't overworked them i haven't been stressed, all i've done as a matter of fact is go shopping, clean up, watch movies, sleep and go to the gym. All in al i have to say they have been swell. Although i always try to act invincible i know i'm not, and let my guard down on thursday night and had meself a good cry. An old lady died at the nursing home. I had to remind meself i am human and i am allowed to cry. With all that aside i understand the importance of a break. Anyhow now i've had it i'm ready to face the return to uni and my 11 shifts i have this week. Yes i am a work-a-holic, but gives me a sense of belonging. Well thats enough of that. I'm going to perth in a few weeks! YAY! also new applications came in the mail yesterday because my passport has expired so i need to fill the forms in for a new one. Although i'm gonna be well grounded for awhile because after chatting around it would be ridiculous of me to defer my nursing even if i'm not ready for it yet. I've just gotta jump with both feet. And then it'll be sink or swim, but at least i'll have the degree. I'm thinking what it would be like to start again somewhere. To disappear to another country or even state i'm not fussy, and have to start all over, make new friends, find a new job and have a complete change of scenery. I think i'd cope better with that then having to be a nurse right now. But mybe i'm only haveing these apprehensions because by the time i go on clinicals again it will have been 9months between acute clinicals, and i proberly remember more than i give myself credit for. Anyhow i gotta get to bed, thats why i took tonight off work so i can get an early night for work tomorrow. so i'll leave you with the song that has been in my head all day.

There's a grief that can't be spoken.
There's a pain goes on and on.
Empty chairs at empty tables
Now my friends are dead and gone.

Here they talked of revolution.
Here it was they lit the flame.
Here they sang about `tomorrow'
And tomorrow never came.

From the table in the corner
They could see a world reborn
And they rose with voices ringing
I can hear them now!
The very words that they had sung
Became their last communion
On the lonely barricade at dawn.

Oh my friends, my friends forgive me

(The ghosts of those who died on the barricade appear)

That I live and you are gone.
There's a grief that can't be spoken.
There's a pain goes on and on.

Phantom faces at the window.
Phantom shadows on the floor.
Empty chairs at empty tables
Where my friends will meet no more.

(The ghosts fade away)

Oh my friends, my friends, don't ask me
What your sacrifice was for
Empty chairs at empty tables
Where my friends will sing no more.

Yesterday, today, tomorrow

2006-04-10T07:13:51Z

Well, if many of you do or do not know i have not been well lately. Feeling ill beginning with an uncomfortable hot fever feeling, vomiting then the shivers, where i cannot warm up to save myself, not to mention the new symptoms where i'm also becoming dizzy. I had my first funny turn of it at uni last week, also had it at home on friday afternoon, happened at the pub on saturday night while i was working, in the nursing home on sunday morning too. So that has got me thinking that if it has happened this many times then it obviously isn't good, so i've made a doctors appointment for later in the week. So we'll see what happening then. Until then i just hope it's all good.

In regards to my 2 essays i've finished one and handed it in and got an extension til thursday for the other one, so i'll get cracking on that tonight. Went to lunch with irene today which was nice, we had an awesome chat, i can't believe i've barely spoken to her since i got back. Quite strange actually. But anyhow i've had a good day today. Ran into Katie and uni and had a chat, it was nice to see her and catch up, she's swamped with work at the moment too. I really can tell how she is feeling. Which is why i'm going on a holiday to Perth.

I booked my ticket yesterday and i'm gonna go for my birthday because there is nothing i want for my birthday and i definatly do not want a fuss for it (ie party bbq pub anything) So the easiest way of doing that is to not be here. Plus i'll get to catch up with Jenko. Haven't seen him in ages. Oh Megan and i did get our lakes entrance placement so that is gonna be awesome, can't wait. So thats another trip also i still have to ring judy to let her know when i'm on placement in warragul. This year has gone so fast already and with the amount of clinical placements i have got to fill in the rest of the year it'll feel like i'm never at uni. Which is good because i don't like it. Never really have.

Am trying to save again, would love to go somewhere different at the end of the year. Brooke brought this most awesome book around yesterday, a lonely planet book that has every country in the world in it. So cool, apparently they have brought out one of all the capital cities. So want it. I just want to jet set again. I'm sick of the same stuff going on all the time and getting caught in a trap of worthlessness, and same old. It's boring and pointless, the same shit is always going on. If i can't get back overseas or away soon, i might just move deep into the country or go interstate. I'm thinking doing nursing in darwin would be really intresting.

We shall see.
anyhow enough jabbering from me
Pen

3pennylane @ 2006-04-05T06:29:00

2006-04-04T20:37:31Z

Well everything and nothing has happened since my last post. For starters, paddy's day rocked! I loved it. I've never seen the pub so busy, the line was huge and seriously you could not move once you got in there. Luckily enough i knocked myself off around 10:30 and surrounded myself with a few mates, and had a fantastic night, even calling mum out at 3am to pick everyone up. And guess what she didn't really care. Anyhow then i had my psych placement which was crazy. First week was spent on CAT which was fun then got to the real loooneys week two up on 2west. I like psych but i think i've decided now that a career in psych is not for me. WE have to put down our preferences for our preceptorships at the minute and it's scary, cos your preceptorship leads on to your grad year and i don't what to have to choose that already. We also have to choose our community placements, so megan and i are thinking of heading up to lakes entrance together to do it. Fingers crossed for it. On top of that i've just got a new job. I started last night and i am on my way ther now. At a nursing home... and i'm not sure whether i like it or not yet, give me a week or two to settle in and decide, after being there it makes me appreciate the pub even more. ALso on my plate at the minute i have 2 major asssignment both due next week, both long, and both of them are HARD! i don't know when i'm gonna find the time to do them as i'm working every night now until they are due, i'm working sunday day as well, and i've already manage to get out of my saturday day shift at the pub to go to chris's thingymajig. Anyhow i'll be late if i don't head off now.

Cheers

Back in the Saddle

2006-03-10T07:58:50Z

Well back to my normal quite boring life as a 3rd year uni student. Back to the pub, and am getting all psyched up for st patricks day next week! Stoked. Made Some cool pants last night and will post some photos from the day if i get around to it! So how it feels to be back... NOT GOOD! I mean it was nice to see everyone and be staying in the one location for more than a few days. But really everything has changed here, people have all changed and i think most of all i have changed. But i'm so looking forward to the next trip. New Zealand! Mid year should be grand can't wait. Although i wonder if trying to ground myself for awhile might make a difference. Anyhow enough of that. I miss travelling!!!

I love london

2006-02-03T19:44:20Z

Hey all!
Well it's nearing the end of friday the 3rd of feb. Which means that i only have another 12 full days left overseas. Of these i've just filled out the bulk of them thanks to national express and their go anywhere for £9 deal. What a bargain. So this is the deal, on monday i'm getting on the bus to York to meet kirsti, for those who don't know kirsti is a daughter of one of the ladies that works with mum! she has just come over so i'm gonna catch up with her. We are then going to edinburgh on wednesday, yay fun with the scots! From there i'm catching an overnight coach to bath, arriving on sunday morning, then heading back to mary and ivors on the monday night, to spend my final few days with them, before heading to heathrow airport on thursday night! where have these 3 months gone. Looking forward to coming home and catching up with you all again.

sorry this has been a boring post.

Love always
Pen.

Photo's round two

2006-01-24T19:59:07Z

Ok i've got more time now so i'll put some more up, that and i have a better computer, unfortunatley i couldn't upload a great deal of photos also they all appear to be of france with the exception of one in London. As i could only burn 120 photo's onto a disc at boots, you'll have to wait til a) i run out of space on my camera to take more photo's again, or b) I'm back at Mary and Ivors where i can download them all for nothing! Anyhow here are the rest i couldn't upload earlier. I'll see you all in a few weeks. Lots of Love - Penny Lane

Ooooooooooooooh the louve!

Elisa loving the art!

I'm Loving the art

But I love this art work much better! This old VW was on the wall in our hostel, I absolutly loved it. Best part of the hostel. (we got over the bagettes for breakie real fast)

Elisa entertaining us with a puppet show, whilst waiting for the rest of our laundry in France.

Finally us and Big Ben! (the computer stuffed up during the uploading of this photo - Worse things have happened)

Some photo's from paris, and london

2006-01-24T17:46:20Z

You'll have to rotate your heads the photobucket won't let me rotate them

Me at the tower.

Me at the Arc

Elisa at the Arc

Welcome to my home (Napoleon's apartments in the louve)

May Elisa offer you some tea?

Me putting a head on things

To be continued...

Well elisa has gone

2006-01-21T16:34:42Z

Hey well elisa has gone, i saw her off on her bus last night. Tonight i'm off to see women in white (andrew lloyd webbers new musical) Then tomorrow i'm off to liverpool i can't hardly wait.

anyhow heres a picture that we got in amsterdam of us at the heineken experience in amsterdam. When i do actually get my photos off my camera i'll load some up for you. I'll be home before you know it though.

Pen

On the road again.

2005-12-30T11:05:56Z

Well i'm about to jet set again this time off to Amsterdam for new years. It has come around so fast! I can't hide the fact that i'm excited, especially to be meeting up with elisa, and having a connection with Australia again. At the moment i'm sitting in an internet cafe in Dublin, as i don't have to be at the airport til 1400, for a 1600 flight, and the hostel kicked me out at ten so i have to wander around dublin with my pack so i thought why not come online and update this thingy. Well Chirstmas was really nice. Mary made an awesome christmas lunch and well i still think i'm stuffed from eating so much! It was nice not to have to share a room, and be able to get up at anytime. I saw the funniest fight in my dorm last night, it was full of asian and two of them got in a massive fight about a bed and sheets, whilst everyone else was trying to sleep. i was in stitches, remind me to tell you more about it another time! but yeah so what else is news. Not much i think. oh well i'm sure there will be plently of stories in the next few weeks. just think it's only approx 3 weeks til i'll be in liverpool! Stoked. can't wait.

Love all
Pen

Pictures pictures and more pictures

2005-12-20T15:29:38Z

Here are just a few photos hope you like them. i stuck to giving you mainly ones with people. Hope you are all well and Merry Christmas

Me at the guinness factory... Cheers (my goodness my guinness)

Teal and I at the Jameson Distillery! (no i'm not an alco!!!)

Kissing the blarney stone in the rain

Setting off for the ring of kerry! It's freezing i have about 6 layers on! 7am frosty and still dark.

Awesome view over the atlantic after the biggest mountain ever... I hate bikes!

Finding the Craic

Ring of Kerry by car! Much easier!

Cliffs of Moher, photo does no real justice because of fog, but we were awestruck.

Lunch at O'Conners Pub doolin, with the american sisters. Having a blast. (don't actually know their names)

Me sitting in the guildhall! Gonna Free the city!!!

Bogside!

Oh Danny Boy.....

2005-12-15T19:54:31Z

Well it's been a long time between updates, but basically just on to say I LOVE IRELAND!!! my love affair with travelling is eternal! i'm stuffed now that i've got the travel bug inside me! Met some cool americans last night at the pub. And today they were driving the ring of kerry which i had just got back from cycling around, and asked me to come, so why not! we had a ball, it was good to see it when your not struggling to get yourself and your bike up the mountainside! So it was me the americans chad the canadian and becky the pom driving around in a tiny little car having a blast! Chad and i actually piked on our bike ride we tried to be too adventurous when really 2 days full cycling had us cactus. So we stopped in sneem and tried to hitch a ride back to killarney, had trouble getting the two of us and the bikes though so we caught the bus which was an awesome merc! leather seats and all. we were buggered, my knees are still stiff and chad had completely buggered his, so we went to the pub last night to drink our stiffness and pain away! I love pub crawling in Ireland. Have also starting drinking pints and pints of cider with a bit of blackcurrent juice. Tastes prime! Also cheap, which is grand for me. I'm off to Galway tomorrow. Can you believe i've been gone three weeks??? doesn't feel like it. Sad to say i only have another 2 weeks in ireland, and still so much i want to see and do. oh well always next time. Can't wait for the next leg to begin. elisa it's gonna be fab. Also considering only spending 3 weeks doing everything i want in london and spending the last bit with mary and ivor so i can spend more money doing the things i want rather than trying to fit too much in on a tiny budget! There is talk of going out tonight to try and find the craic again but i think i'm too tired! i'm sure i'll find it in galway! anyhow i can't be bothered writing anymore.

Cheers for now mateys
Pen

3pennylane @ 2005-11-23T13:55:00

2005-11-23T03:00:38Z

Well the time has come the walrus said!

Well here we go last australia entry for 3 months! i realised that i'm going to have computer withdrawals a hell of a lot more than work withdrawals, and even more than that... phone and friends withdrawals. Now that the time has come and the impossible dream i have set for myself has come true, i realised it's not really what i wanted at all. i just wanted to prove i could do it. Oh well no point saying all that crap because i'm going today no butts about it, and i'm going to have a ball.

Gonna catch a bus down Penny Lane!!! Can't wait. Anyhow everyone look after yourselves, have a brillant summer, a great christmas and new years! And i'll see you before you know it.

Gonna Miss you all everyday!

Cheers
Pen

p.s how cute is the dirty face!

Boys are stupid... throw stones at them!

2005-11-14T11:56:17Z

Hey all! Well only 9 days left and the scary thing is i have most of my time booked up and still have no time to do things i should be doing. Work is stuffing my plans up. Oh well not long now only 5 more shifts! YIPPIE! Tonight we had nutcases in the pub. one guys sat by himself in the corner talking to the wall as if it was his best friend and it was bizarre! then there was this really creepy man who kept looking at me and tiff funny, all smiley and stuff and making kissing faces and noises at us. It was disgusting an old man who can barely speak english and proberly hasn't seen a shower in about a month (phew... smelly)

Yesterday was good day. Elisa was coming around for us to organise our eurail pass, which didn't end up happening because Jaz and Chris came around. Was really good to see him again after such a long time! So we all mucked around for a while before i had to kick them all so i could get to work. After work (and a few phone calls) jaz, chris, elisa and nick came in to frankston and we went to flanny's. Had a good night there before we got kicked out. i only wish i had of been able to drink. Would have made the night lots more fun (and proberly at times a little less awkward) But all in all i had a fabulous night up until the stage where chris vomited on elisa's front lawn, poor boy still hasn't learnt to control the drink.

Tomorrow night should be interesting to see all of us on the turps. i'll wait to take my lead from the others on how much i'm gonna drink. i'm taking no more than $70. i'll depend on pre drinks and then maybe just drink beer all night. we will see. Am looking forward to it more than going to europe at the minute and that is saying something. I know it already that i'm gonna find it hard overseas because without really realizing it, i depend on my friends a hell of a lot and am always calling them even if it's just to say hi. So tomorrow night will be fab. Well with the people who are going i don't see how it could be anything but.

Saw brooke today. we had good chat. haven't spoken to her for ages. She brought me a cool beatles thing back from queensland, and david brought me a new frog light keyring thingy because he decapitated the one i have on my keys at the minute and saw it and thought it was funny! i was stoked but now i'm so used to the headless frog i don't know whether to put the new one on. i think it actually looks better headless.

Also saw irene today, after her clinicals, looks as though she'll have an interesting time as she is on the oncology ward. i did two days on oncology in my first year at pen private, didn't care much for it. but then hey i loved psych except for the day that bitch made me cry! Well she wasn't really a bitch she was actually pretty funny, and nice to me a lot of the time, i just stumped her because i don't give much away, and i'm actually quite difficult to read when it comes down to my thoughts. Ask anyone my interests though and they could answer them straight away, beatles, musicals, 60's, drinking, working, christmas(only 41days folks) but when it comes down to what i think and feel and believe not many people actually know. i don't know why i have trouble expressing myself, i have nothing to be afraid of but i'm always holding back for the fear of the unknown, and believe it or not i care alot about the opinons of others.

Ok i'll stop that now, sorry jaz started to get carried away again. Seems to have been a habit this year hasn't it? oh well diddums!

Night readers!

P.S. i love johnny farnham!

I LOVE THIS SONG

I got myself into some trouble tonight
Guess I’m just feeling blue
It’s been so long since I’ve seen your face
This distance between me and you

That voice you showed me is not the one I know
I must be strung out on what I do
Don’t hang up again
There’s nothing else I know how to do

But I burn for you
What am I going to do
I burn for you
Burn for you

I guess it feels like you’re always alone
And I feel that way too
It’s so hard to explain to you
Please understand what I do

But I burn for you
What am I going to do
I burn for you
Burn for you

Took my trouble to a bar tonight
For another point of view
But there’s nothing new
I’m missing you

But I burn for you
What am I going to do
I burn for you
Burn for you

she'll be coming round the mountain...

2005-11-13T00:13:50Z

Well exciting news readers. it's now only 10 sleeps. Pretty close now! Since my last post i have brought more essentials, in the way of a new hairbrush, toothbrush, toothpaste, shampoo and conditioner (travel size) and have stocked up on all my drugs! the drugs alone cost me $80 at the chemist and that was with the discount from the healthcare card. Oh well these things happen. In brighter news guess what else i brought today!!!! A SLEEPING BAG LINER!!! IT'S GREEN! I LOVE EBAY i just hope it gets out here from asia before i leave!!! that'd make it interesting wouldn't it.

Last night was my last night at the langy. Michelle told me off a record 8 times, for just the stupidest lamest stuff. oh well diddums i don't care now she can take her fat arse and pick on someone else all the time instead of me.

Mum took mary and ivor to mornington market this morning. all i can say is she has great patience, she's had enough of them though i can tell she escapes to my pub all the time to come and tell me i think it's funny, oh well it's not long now so all is good. except i actually have to put up with them for the next 18 days as i'm going back to theirs for 8 days. they mean well though so i should attack them.

Change of plans, Kate didn't actually give me tuesday day off but she gave me wednesday which sort of works better as if we go out on tuesday night i can recover from it and then i can go to the city on wednesday to run my errands. i think i'm gonna hit uncle bruce up tomorrow though about the travel insurance as i don't start work til 6:30 Yay! another sleep in.

On an exciting note, i reckon i've slept better the last 4weeks then i ever have. I've been managing minimum 7 hours a night without the nightmares and without waking every hour. those langy dreams were scary!!!! Anyhow i think this is enough blabbering for me to last a little while.

Cheers

3pennylane @ 2005-11-07T22:49:00

2005-11-07T11:50:10Z

Time bending is your secret ability.
You are wise beyond your years and extremely
intelligent. You are the kind of person who
seeks for answers at their proper source. You
know how to manage your time in the real world,
and manipulate them as well. Sometimes,
whenever the time comes, you can explain the
past of a certain place without knowing an
ounce of it yourself. You understand things
that many people can't comprehend in the
present, but will be able to if they were in
the past. You are the kind of person, people go
to for advice, and you give it with no
questions asked. No wonder you're such a great
person.

Everyone has a secret ability. What is yours? (7 answers with pics)
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working 13 hrs makes me tired.

2005-11-07T11:40:15Z

long days make me tired when i'm tired and or drunk i think way too much.

A DRUNK MAN'S WORDS ARE A SOBER MAN'S THOUGHTS!

Always liked that quote.

It's only 48 sleeps til christmas

I leave in 16 sleeps

There is a british 60's music exhibition on at NGV.
LOTS OF BEATLES STUFF.
I'm gonna go one day next week
On this day i plan to meet elisa for lunch, see craig's new house, go to the expo, and meet with uncle bruce to organise my travel insurance, etc.

If the past is so good why do we long for the future???

2005-11-04T10:12:27Z

Life is hectic at the moment. the big countdown is on it now less than 3 weeks to my big trip and i still have so much to organise. Mum is being great about it but is still worried about every decision i make and won't let me book anything online without me talking to uncle bruce first. which i can't do until he gets back from tassie end of next week. dad is much better about it he lets me do what i want after all it is my trips so my mistakes should be just that MINE! Mum and i went out for dinner tonight. it was nice we haven't done that for such a long time.i worked 10hrs today jsut for something completely different. Kate has given me a great roster with lots of shifts, and mum's work is chaotic at the inute so i'm doing every hour i can spare there keying away. plus the langy still. On a slightly sad/happy note i handed my resignation into the langy yesterday. Di was really nice about it, i'm glad she was there so i didn't have to talk to michelle or tim about it cos i don't like them and it would have been harder. i told a lie and said i was going for my brother's wedding. hahaha andrew getting married what a strange thought. i started packing my backpack the other night when it was really hot, i couldn't sleep and couldn't comprhend cold weather so i started to grab all my winter clothes jackets, jeans, scarfs and threw them in pile in my room ready to go in my backpack. my towel is really cool i used it at craig's on cup day and it's awesome. absolutly loving it. i spoke to andrew and he said i didn't need to get sheets which is pretty cool, it's gonna save me a bucket. tony got back today and said i'll have no trouble getting a pub job in dublin and not to bother with online applications, which is awesome although mum is iffy about it as she wants me to have somewhere to go to. which i think is fair enough but cos tony said that she is a little more relaxed.um what else. Chris apparently gets home next week, don't know if he is or not... still haven't heard from him. i need to book my eurail trip before i go so elisa we need to organise that asap! i don't start work next saturday til 1 so you are not doing anything in the morning and you are coming with me to organise and book the trip and book specific legs of it... ie the overnight trains. i also have to get my travel insurance. it doesn't look like it's gonna cost that much. i have in my account $5,000 and next week is gonna be a big pay. then i'm going get another fortnight's pay which should boost me up to $6,500. and i'll get my holiday pay which leg me up to &7,900. then i have to do all my accounts, (eurail, insurance etc) and then my 3 credit cards so it looks as though i should be alright... for now. i can't believe how well i've saved for this trip considering that i started saving in may.

anyhow this is enough rambling for tonight

3pennylane @ 2005-11-01T13:38:00

2005-11-01T02:50:59Z

Exams are over
Yay! I'm free
No more pens
And study for Me!

Todays the big race
So lets place a bet.
We watch the horsies run
And our winnings we'll net.

We'll toast the winner
Our spirits are high
Tomorrow we'll lie in bed
And let our hangovers die.

With our money in our pockets
And the day in our minds
When i'm overseas
i'll remember the good times

Not long to go
Before i globe trot,
There are eight countries
I need to plot.

Hey ya i'm bored and excited and am about to go celebrate Melbourne Cup!

Have a good day and best of luck ;)

SECLUSION IS NECESSARY! (section82)... the lunatic is on the grass

2005-10-31T13:07:59Z

Well it's mental exam tomorrow and i have barely attempted to study inbetween shocking hayfever and sinus headaches, work and dad just distracting me with his shingles and his stories on how he spent an entire week drinking and getting his stomach pumped when he was my age. interesting story though, remind me at a later time to tell you about the soap powder. talking about soap powder i did my laundary today, and i checked all my pockets in my pants but forgot the pocket of my apron, i washed a langy red serviette, and now all my stuff is pink! dodgy dodgy dodgy. Tomorrow is cup day and i think i'm gonna back vinnie roe for a place! but you never can tell with horses. Anyhow don't really mind i won't be putting a big bet on just a little one enough for it to be interesting. Not gonna drink much either because i can't afford it. Only 3 weeks and 2 days left, i can't wait. i realise that such a quick coming trip saves me. Have to tell the langy sometime this week that i'm leaving and this is gonna be my two weeks notice. So i have to write my resignation i think i might leave it for thursday, which reminds me i have to email mrs whelan to cancel wednesday because i have to work and can't get it off. Well not so much can't but would rather not muck kate up anymore, she is giving me good shifts at the moment mind i suppose she will until i go. i wonder if she will be glad to see the back of me? i decided tonight that i'm gonna send the langy a christmas card. aren't i showing no hard feelings! GO ME!!! well this is dandy and is wasting lots of my time that i should be spending studying but i think that i will finish summarising the aggression and violence and do the rest in the morning, it only consists of depression, mania, suicide, and anxiety. which now i think about it is quite a lot. i also have to look up a few terms and words such as flight of ideas, clanging, blunted affect, flat affect,poverty of speech, thought blocking, etc. so that'll all be fresh in my head tomorrow. i think 75% of this exam is multiguess with only a few long answer which should be pretty cool, charn is normally nice with questions. well i hope he is cos now that i'm thinking back i remember we didn't have an exam for his subject last year. i like mental this year though i wonder whether i will like it next year. i wonder if i will go ok on this exam. i know this sounds nasty but hey its me and i'm very competitive (Nassisiric personality disorder[i know something]) i hope i beat megan becausei know that she is smart but she hates mental so it would be shaming to me to let her beat me.

In other good news elisa brought a sleeping bag today! YAY for ELISA!

Time for me to go back to seclusion section 82 of the mental health act!

3pennylane @ 2005-10-29T22:55:00

2005-10-29T13:16:54Z

I brought a towel today.

yay go me a towel. i also got my flights from bournemouth to dublin $18... yeah thats right go me, and cheap flights woot! and my flight from dublin to amsterdam which cost $70 but it was on special so i'm stoked. so all is coming together. i still need to buy a silk liner, a torch, some basic first aid stuff, new socks, a vest, a multi adapter plug and some other stuff. Mum said she will take me shopping mary adn ivor go to tassie. Which i can't wait for.

Mary and Ivor are annoying me. I've had exams all this last week and they are driving me bonkers. When i do actually study my desk is the kitchen table, and well i can't study there at night cos they have to play cards. then during the day as i try to study they are constantly on my back... (how's the study going??? can we get you anything??? penny whats this??? etc) i can't stand it much longer they invade my house and don't know how to leave me alone! Another thing, the house was supposed to be all mine this weekend well it's not dad's got the shingles again pretty badly so he hasn't gone to sandy. Mind i suppose it could be worse.

just to let you know i'm having going away drinks at hapenny on monday 21st november, come if ya can

Cheers

Pen

Peachy Keen

2005-10-21T10:41:24Z

Hey there!

Well it's all been happening. I think since i last posted i had an asthma attack, found out chris is coming home, worked heaps, joined a gym, moved into the frankston motel, had floors polished, got results back have started study for exams, booked accommodation in amsterdam for new years, joined YHA, got a make poverty history band, just to name a few things that have been going on! So now i'm sitting here ready to go to work, all decked out in my cool becks merchandise. i love the merch! Exams are next week and for once i'm not that worried about science. i find genetics not too hard, reproductive systems are easy to learn as is human development. i'm only slightly worried about metabolism, but then it should be too bad because i only have to get approx 20% on the exam to pass the unit! yay! go me i only need 12 % for nursing prac and same goes for psych, so hopefully i'm looking at distinctions... famous last words. i'm not doing too well in ethics because the lecture is annoying and she didn't like my essay so i only passed that with 50% so i have to pass the exam to pass the subject which puts a little extra pressure on it especially as it is the same format as the essay. But then i look at this and say, hey it's only 4 exams all over in less than 2 weeks, and honestly nothing can bring me down. I'm so excited it's only 4 and 1/2 weeks til i go away this year has flown. i've got more of an itinary planned now, it was easier to do without mum hanging around. SO thats all planned but now mum is home well getting home today so she might try and change a few things. But i'm wrapped. I can't believe how much i have planned. I suppose mum will help me with the finer details i'm hoping she will come clothes shopping with me, i've started a list of what i need and have already started trying to pack my backpack. anyhow i'm now running late for work so i'll finish this at a later time!

3pennylane @ 2005-10-01T16:12:00

2005-10-01T06:13:15Z

I'M SO SORRY.

I'M A BITCH.

I HATE MYSELF FOR IT.

PLEASE FORGIVE ME.

when sleep seems to far away

2005-09-16T16:13:23Z

Well it's 2am on a friday night and i'm sitting here typing at my computer. What a sad existance. WEll i'm no longer tired because i had a nana nap before i went to work today but you could almost say i've been on the go all day. well really all week, and dating back. I've earnt and saved a fair chunk of my wages this year and it's gonna be grand when i finally make it overseas. i have to get there first. Mum and i decided to disregard what the doctor said about my blood tests, and am taking no further action! As i said from the start i'm not sick!!! Anyhow, this week has been filled with lots of work. i have been at the hospital days and nights and at the langy and hapenny. NEWS FLASH SCOTT IS NO LONGER MANAGER HE HAS HAD ENOUGH!!! sorry had to add that in. Ball is on wednesday nighti think i'm gonna have to take it easy on the alcohol though because i'm so tired lately that two drinks will proberly knock me for 6 and then i've gotta go to the hospital the next day too. woe is me. But all will be worth it. Am still couting in weeks, but give it a little while longer and i'll be onto days. Only 17 shifts at the langy left. I'm counting down those. Mary and ivor come in two weeks which should be good! i can't wait. I'm going back with them, and then who knows, depends what chris is doing at that time, depends how much money i've got, lots of little factors contributing to it. BUT I JUST WANT TO FLY LIKE THE WIND. i don't want any cares or worries, i just want to have a few weeks holiday before i have to start working. DOn't i deserve it. i think i need a break bu can't have have one yet. I also think i need tamazapan (sleeping tablets) because i really can't sleep. although on monday night i had one of the best nights sleep i've had in about 3mths. Question... How do you fall asleep? and when you manage how do you stop the dreams and voices? Can you? Anyhow i'm not gonna get into all of that again. I'm gonna go fly a kite.

Time for a big update

2005-09-05T12:58:44Z

Geez this year has flown by so fast i can hardly recall most months. I've been pretty busy lately with working the two pubs, mental placement, driving to mental placement, car getting robbed, stupid blood tests where i'm waiting on results, and the uni girls keep bugging me to go to the doctor cos they tell me that i'm sick. I'm so annoyed with people telling me i'm making myself sick. Just cos i have a busy life doesn't mean that i'm getting sick. I'm eating a balanced diet, proberly getting a little less sleep than i should but with my mind racing so fast all the time, sleep just doesn't come. It's really quite difficult for me to slow my thoughts to be able to sleep. And then when i do get to sleep all the thoughts jumble together making it all seem even more difficult i find myself waking in the night all the time, scared to think about anything, but unable to stop. Beginning to find it difficult to differentiate dreams from reality, it's really unsettling. So that also stops me from sleeping. The what if the dreams are right? What if my nurse on clinicals really was right and i'm going nuts. I still can't believe i broke down, i know this is starting to get repetitive but it's a huge thing for me and i'm really finding it difficult to swallow. Then i think i stuffed up my ballet exam, my concept map isn't big enough, got my lab tomorrow that i haven't studied for and my mental assignment due on friday that i haven't started. But then i love mental so i shouldn't find it too difficult. Thats another thing that has confused me, i had it firmly planted in my head that i was going to hate psych, and that it was going ot be a horrible placement and i really turned out to love it which has thrown my nursing plans for a 6. But could i really be a psych nurse? I go out on clinicals again on monday but to an acute med surg placement, so i guess i'll make up my mind after completing that. So who knows what's gonna happen. Not me and it really does scare the shit out of. Like who knows whats gonna happen when i get on that plane to england. when i'm in england, whether i make it to ireland? Will i have enough money? i got approved for my mini pink visa today which is pretty exciting, and i found out i have $1,000 holiday pay owing from hapenny which will be a fantastic going away present to myself i think i deserve it. Don't you? What else, oh yeah i went out friday night for the first time in ages and had a drink, was good fun. oh another thing i'm peeved about is ash's attitude to people missing lectures and stuff at uni, just cos she has got it all dished out on a silver platter and now has one less subject and a shitload of free time doesn't mean she can hang it on other for missing stuff cos we have a full agenda. On a brighter note i do know that next year when i get back from O/S i'm not going back to the pubs, i know i'm gonna miss it, but i know it's something i gotta do it really is. I mean i've made some great friends and i know i'll always get a free drink in there, but it's just not gonna be my way of life. Tomorrow i don't have to be at uni til 2 so i'm gonna have a little lay in before i get cracking on more study. on a bright note even though it's not enough my concept map looks fantastic like a school project. I'm wrapped. I love nursing. I'm so glad i became one. do you ever wonder what it would have been like if you never thought of what you wanted to do and what you like and if you never fell into it. like i never ever wanted to be a nurse, always something in medicine but never a nurse. Now i'd hate to be anything but. I think i'm one of the lucky ones in that respect and i know i'll always be able to find work and have a job. Who knows what the future holds though. who even knows if we make it to the end of the year or not. Should never gaze to far into the future, you never know what might interrupt your plans. Which leads me to the past. how do you know that something that was good in the past will be good in the future? how can you plan something about the past in the future when alot has happened in between, you can't can you? So why try? I am right on this i hope. Also if somethings are so hard to say that you can't say them literally how do you know you mean it? But then why do we place so much emphasis on the spoken word? Don't actions speak 1000 words? i have no real idea and i'm starting to babble and loose my train of thought because too much is coming in as i try and gain one at a time. i think i've done an ok job for a change of channeling them. hope you can follow it, if you can't well really i don't blame you it's bizzare really it, but then know you sort of have a glimpse of whats running in my head.